我不配

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉你没给
我嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是你忽略　我不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对　
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节我好累
我默背为你掉过几次泪多憔悴
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Japan Trip

I am just too lazy to update my blog. It's been a month. Life has been colorful with work, new friends, juicy gossips and events happening all around me. Changed outlet. Gone are the times with murky relationships and wagging tongues. Finally realised that those that are to leave your life at a certain stage will have to go.. and you can do nothing more than to watch their backs as they leave. Afterall, I am the one who disappointed them in the first place... I cannot give what was required of me, even if I did, it would have been wrong. As I look back, they might not have been truthful till the end, but I don't blame them... It's only instinct to cover your blemishes. =)

Received overseas conditionals which I have met their requirements, local as well... but all is still not decided yet. At least there's still a school that accepts my disgraceful results. YBC, vesak, thanks to Amelia I get to know a bunch of crazy fellas and enjoy lovely events. Pity the sun spoilt the beginning of it and made me so peaky, but it's okay, the ending was a great one with Black Forest. After so much listening of how good they are from Amelia, I've finally got to know them for real and get a feel of their power-vocals and music talents. ^ ^

The best thing that happened to me for this month is still my Japan trip. Fianlly stepped onto my desired country... it's just like a dream come true for me... JAPAN! This time is Tokyo, next time will be Osaka, Kyoto, Hokkaido, Okinawa.... ^ ^

妥協

Girl.

when she gets moody, try to understand her feelings. sometimes she just needs your company.she doesn't need to be showered by gifts, she just needs to be reassured that she is loved.she say she is fat to get you to say that she is slim enough for you.even if it's not true, even if you are lying, tell her she is pretty, at least in your eyes.please try not to tell her how pretty another girl is, more or equivalent.no matter how strong she appears to be, she might just tear when no one is looking.sometimes when she says she is alright, she just isnt.sometimes she just needs a hug.sometimes she just doesn't know what can she offer to you or give up for you anymore or whether you appreciate them.sometimes she doesn't know if she is being unreasonable.she understands that you are busy, but try not to neglect her when she is in an unfamiliar environment, she's just very lost in the background.sometimes she just needs to be coaxed.sometimes she just wants you to look at her and not other girls.she knows you need to talk to them, just hold her hand for 1 sec to tell her its okay.sometimes she will try to say things to make you jealous but she'll never do them.she just wants to know that she still mean something to you.she'll know the end of the story when she's numb.it'll just be the same.

可以不愛了

我努力要自己避開 和你曾走過的地帶
但是又和不捨拉扯 處在我快樂的界外
我何嘗不是一個人 來決定愛的延長賽
奈何總是勉強對自己 有一個善良的交代
我努力要自己躲開 你給我的傷心地帶
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到現在還是一個人 吞噬著自己的能耐
到最後我可以不愛了 你卻說捨不得

離開你欲走還留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲開你轉身以後的消息
這一次我可以