jaded.

not here to gloat. not here to emo.
i won't give details about how devastating it is.
and i'm sick of pathetic faces.
i won't regret.
i promise.


i'm gonna screw you, A levels.

F1

Frankly i didn't just sit down there and watch for the whole two hours plus, but im lucky to see the fuse pipe stuck onto Massa's machine there, and Raikkonen crashing... what a nightmare for Ferrari tonight.
Lewis Hamilton must be smiling now. He's in the lead.
Wonder how he felt when he shook Alonso's hand...
It never fails to amuse me with the number of people I know who dislike Hamilton. LOL.

honeymoon

I'm so oldschool nowadays. Those few songs really brought back memories, and I digged out my The Beatles CD yesterday, along with my brother's That Thing You Do! CD. :D i wanna watch Saturday Night Fever and Grease all over again! (Tell me why, tell me why) My dad will start to think I'm gettin too stressed up if i start borrowing his old english collection from him... LOL.
The Wonders - That Thing You Do

The Beatles - I wanna hold your hand


Spice Girls - Wannabe

"If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends,
If you wanna be my lover, you have got to give,
Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is."

slack slack slack. im on my post-prelims honeymoon:)
the time i spend at home is with my laptop.
thanks to amelia, i finished a great anime series, Kamichama Karin! <3
short and sweet 26 episodes with absolutely no fillers like Shugo Chara.


can't wait for Kamichama Karin Chu!!

I also finished 14 Sai no Haha! though i started watching long ago.. very touching drama, maybe not as good as Taiyou no Uta or One litre of Tears, but still, Shida Mirai really did a good job of acting out a pregnant 14 year-old. Didn't really noticed her in Tantei Gakuen Q though, cos Yamada is too good. Don't like the role of Miura Haruma in the show.. he's better in Gokusen 3 -__________-



Finished Hotaru no Hikari in one day. 0.o didn't really sleep much these days, it's too nice to be missed. well, it's very relevant to me, cos Hotaru is lazy and unglam just like ME!:D
"I'd rather lay around than fool around"



I wanna watch Hong Gil Dong next! I heard it's super nice! Though I find the male lead resemblance to Shin Dong very disturbing... but at least I know there's an eye candy in the show.. Jang Geun Suk!! ahhhh~


Just watched DBSK's performance on SBS Kim Jung Eun's Chocolate.. *MELTS* although my mom pointed out to me that Junsu's the least goodlooking member on the gigantic board my laopos made for me.. my mom actually chose Changmin over Xiah! 0.o but she said that Jae is the best. =.=





UNDER MY SKIN~

MIROTIC

notice why I don't like this fancam?? this stupid fangirl only focused on YUNHO!! cannot even see Xiah properly!!
nevermind, I found an equally biased fancam for Junsu! muahahahax

*do a fangirl scream*

birthday celebration :) 2

A BIG THANK YOU TO MY DEAREST LAOPOS who made my birthday sucha a special one!! although you guys cheated my feelings along the way... LOL. i can tell that you guys put in lots of time and effort into my birthday, although cursing me along the way, i felt loved!:)
Cannot wait for Aimee's pictures anymore, shall do with mine. :D
My darlings~ cannot decribe how touched i am, especially after reading the messages...



The prezzies, love the BOARD the most. second by the jigsaw puzzle.. im seriously touched by the sweet gestures... JUST HOW SWEET CAN YOU GUYS GET???!!!
*teary eyes*





The best thing that happenned to me in my highschool life is meeting YOU! <3



Went out to eat at Earle Swensen with my parents. stupid brother left me hundred bucks but couldn't spend the day with me.. i rather you eat with me and get me wrappers just like the old days... =( i see you like twice a month??? you are starting to look like Tarzan if you continue to stay in the jungle..
Cake at home :) simple and nice. cos i'm not a big fan of cakes myself.


thank you gary for the teddy bear and card!:)

A BIG THANK YOU to the people who wished me!!
call: kekyz called me at 00:02! :D
SMSes:
first prize goes to someone who really surprised me... IVY! LOL
second is gary.
third is yokie!! :)
jinghui, tienleng, aimee, jamie, anting, nigel, xueling, jingwen, gabriel, kenny, gei, serene, vayl, vivi, alex, lester, aaron, wenjian, jason(7 pages long =.=),yanwen(forced), yiwei( i told him it's guanyinma bday, LOL), pangkiat, roy (who insisted on being the last)
Facebook etc:
tienleng, pearlning, kenghoe, santi, gei, lili, geokjoo, chikong, chinyang, yanwen, bryan, diane, fengyi, hana, darren
sorry if i missed out. BUT REALLY THANK YOU!!!!!
last birthday in dunman already... so many memories :) I still kept the stuff amelia, kerina and shumin gave to me.. :)

birthday celebration :)

i remember that we used to celebrate jiexin, chinyang, lili and my birthday together, yesterday was a special one with jiexin, chinyang, roy and yiwei! :) although i already knew what was going to happen from a very blur mastermind, it was all pleasant and sweet at lust noodles, oops! i meant just noodles! haha. pity that there's always a few who couldn't be present, but i feel their warmth and wishes all the same.

since i'm not very proud of how i look now and the pictures do not flatter me in anyway.. i shall spare you peeps of the horror and torture of seeing me that frequently.

lovely people :) with all my heart.


the two birthday kids and THNG! xDD

of course, my dearest friend, yokie! this poor little girl never fails to make me laugh. she took the train to pasir ris cos she's just too lazy to get off at tampines, and guess what?! we were sitting on the last train! in the end she had to take bus and reached home at like 12am. all the stupid things she does.. LOL. xDD

check out the sweetest looking birthday cake ever! doesn't it look delicious? yumyum.. i love fruit cakes!
pity i don't have the picture, but thanks JUNLI for the lovely cupcake! x) my first bday cake of the year!!


the birthday kids :)
im just so happy to be celebrating with them.. virgos and libras! whoosh!

make a wish.. make a wish..

what am i wishing for?? fancy a guess?? LOL.

cutting the cake with shaky hands..

TADA! we apparated to the rooftop garden of esplanade! LOL. the night scenes are just breathtaking, and the F1 track is just a HUGE PLUS for us! i so love my white SONY baby!




bestest frens xDD sorry for pulling off the silly prank on you! haha.

the game of guessing which is your present is only possible when you have 5 birthday kids xDD

the first little birthday note!

the letters i am supposed to write for the other four birthday kids! roy is right, the most precious gift of all we've yet to receive!

the lovelies from them! the hellokitty drops, the kilakkuma cup, the brown soft toy thingy, earrings and my LOVE, L collectible! omg.. i so so want it! and now i've got it! thanks!!

anyway, im going to save up for the Light one now.. muahahaha. now you know where all my money goes to besides food, TOYS and COLLECTIBLES! wait till you see my room.. xDD. im gonna sweep all the anime collecitbles and sanrio, san-x products once i start earning money.. xDD



thanks to all who made yesterday such a memorable night for me.
anyway.. from the pictures, i am sure you peeps feel the same way.. i'm closing up to the weight and size of a baby whale. oh GOD. i seriously need to cut down on my favourite indulgence and try to move a bit more than setting my ass infront of the computer. don't tempt me! i don't want my face to get rounder than a beach ball. EWW.
i declare.. DIET!

alright.. i'm going to post some very old pictures left in my camera.
the chocolate bar minhua gave to me for all the times we spent online doing our thesis! ahhh~ but all is over now! xD

the cute piggy stressball yokie gave to me when i was struggling between thesis and prelims revision! the poor thing went through torture in many different hands... the pink Women in Engineering entry pass, and the lovely test-tube given by amelia! im so envious of chemistry students sometimes.. check out the the masking tape! xDD just how sweet can you peeps get??

i found these three in my room the other day! must be my brother, he gave me these along with a red packet cos he couldn't make it on my bday.. he's going outfield, somewhere in the jungles i think. they are hello kitty, melody and doraemon! :)


lastly, do stop tagging me in photos on facebook alright? especially fugly ones. facebook is flooding my inbox and im going MAD! >.<

im happy :)

end of prelims

im like sinking into depression. for what good shit reason, i do not know. i don't feel the joy of end of prelims, neither am i looking forward to anything, not even my 18th. anyway. happy birthday to key (23/9), was busy watching ShinEE's reality show, i find suju's full house more entertaining.

mcq sure didn't manage to save my physics. it plunged right down.
qns 13 goes like: zh knows that one of the following quantities is not necessarily the same for satellite in geostationary orbits around the earth.
problem: i don't.
how humiliating.

met yoke at whitesands and roamed every single level of the pathetic shopping mall. nothing seems to catch our attention even though we've got a little bit of time at hand. things also go opposite, like how like forces repel. time and attraction don't go together. all the attractions come only when you cannot afford the time. sat on the bench and treated myself to strawberry iceblended and two chicken pies. i swear im going to learn how to make one of those little baked delicacies once hell is over.



i don't know why. it seems like a super long day.
there's so many things going on at once. i just cannot cope. exams, family matters, friends getting pissed every now and then over a spread of things.

im not unassertive. im not going to be nice anymore. im not going to reply your calls.

It's like we're going through the motions of a scripted destiny
another day, another casualty.

Ahh. for you my friend.

Ahh. second last day of prelims. can't wait. though i dooubt i will really feel the difference. look at what im doing now.

Ahh. my friend, you are vulnerable now. trust your heart but keep your mind in touch. don't take up one to give up the other. don't hold the hand of someone whom you do not feel for. we are on some grassland, but there's rainforest out there. :)





I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile in a hole in my heart

I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart all locked down
And then you turned me around

Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

beep

Ji-yong can seriously dance... BEEP. check it out.

行きたいよ 君のところへ 今すぐ かけだして 行きたいよ

i feel so restless and frustrated over these few days. it's the feeling of falling with nothing to grasp on. to tell you to give up on something you wanted so dearly, which has no meaning or ending to it, and tons of people telling you it's not the time for this. confused. doubt. what's more is the fact that you know how unreachable it is. it's suffocating.

行きたいよ　君のところへ　小さな手をにぎりしめて
泣きたいよ　それはそれは　きれいなそらだった
願いを　流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど
泣きたいよ　届かない想いを　この空に...。